my gay experience and god
Satan claimed me as his. But thank God, Christ had already won the victory over Satan!
My Conversion
The first Friday night of 1996, after a big dinner, drinking, and hot tub party, I went to sleep, only to get up and go into the living room and pray. I knew I needed to make a decision. I couldn’t go on the way I was. I had to have peace. Whatever it took, I had to have it. So after much praying, crying, and turmoil, I surrendered my life over to the Lord, hook, line and sinker. Yep, you got it, everything! I didn’t know how God was going to work things out, but it was now His problem. And the peace that I had been missing all those years, came flooding back into my soul! Oh, how I had missed that feeling of knowing that things were right with God. It truly is the peace that passes all understanding!
I knew I had a long journey ahead of me, but with God’s help I would keep on the path, and what joy I’ve had ever since! Oh, yes, I had fun in the world. Anyone who says that the ways of the world are all sadness and gloom, doesn’t know what they’re talking about. However, without God and His peace, it’s a false “high”.
As you can imagine, I haven’t even begun to touch on all the things that have happened. Eternity won’t be long enough to tell what Jesus has done for me! I praise Him for bringing me back – the lost sheep, the prodigal son and the lost coin all wrapped up in one. The Bible has come alive for me. Its promises are true! We may receive strength to become the children of God. He has opened His heart of love to all of us. All we have to do is fall on the “Rock” and be broken.
Whatever the Holy Spirit tells us to give up, we must be willing to surrender. The pearl of great price required everything, but it was freely offered to all.
May everyone of us be found ready for the most stupendous event of the ages. It’s just around the corner. And Jesus wants everyone of us to be there with Him in the New Earth, where there will be no pain, sorrow, or disappointments. There all our trials will seem very small indeed compared to the wonderful things He has prepared for us!
By Benjamin Anderson Feb 1998
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